busy keeping up with the fast-paced yesterday, today and tomorrow. inactive online because of the other wonders of internet prone to sickness, physically, mentally and virtually.
I knew this girl once, i lost her just recently. She stopped talking to me like she used to, she hates herself for doing so, she thinks it's for the best. She used to be smiling, chatty. Now she's quiet and all to herself, she wants to forget about me. "i seem to get everything wrong nowadays" thats what she thinks. She still smile though, even the slightest smile would last for a few seconds. She still laugh though, but only when she's tired. She used to be sad, she's more sad now. i would apologize to her, she'll say that its ok, it's not my fault. She's lying, i know, she's lying to the whole world. I know her, i see her everyday but we don't talk anymore, i stare at her, she'll stare back and theres emptyness. She told me once, she doesnt understand anything anymore. I tried to help her, but i'm not even talking to her anymore. She's confused, she doesn't have a real friend anymore. When she's quiet, she'll be too quiet, when she's talkative, she talks too little. She gave up, on everything. she hates smiling, she hates love and she hates herself. And i'm to blame. She doesnt trust anyone, not even herself, she's living a lie, she's aware of it, she doesn't even know who she really is.