Sunday seems like such a long way, i'll be going swimming with Lulu, Fya and maybe Naja[: It's been donkey years since my skin touched the chlorinated water of the swimming pool. I need to shed some pounds. I am definitely, super-duper, extremely, very excited. Hopefully it all works out, Naja and Fya said maybe, i can't be too excited to tan my skin, which i am definitely not looking forward to, i'm just looking forward for the swim. With another excitement in store, which i hope works out as well- Me and Lulu will be having a sort-of double date i hope. I'm just planning to finish off the ciggs by that day and munch my way to pig-ness. School have been such a havoc, topsy-turvy and shaky, with twisted words and cunning lies. How could someone roll their eyes sarcastically behind my back one day and ask to take a photo together the next?
I've been patient for awhile now, maybe I just have to let it go. Whats the point of pursuing it anyway? I don't want to hurt myself by knowing the truth. Let's just leave it as it is.
Off topic, i miss my skinny stick man.
I always thought that if you're capable of doing these things to others, do you think people are incapable of hitting you back? If you can't take the blow then why start it in the first place. Such fatuous callow lass. Off the record, i had a jolly good time with loloo, endless tickles and giggles. She's dropping by soon to design a friend's birthday card, no gifts but a special DIY card would do right? Can't wait to have her as company. Little miss JINDAWAN(jin + cendawan) wasn't in school today, you lazy lazy bum. Furthermore, yearn for the skinny guy's presence, oh my frailties again, i love you.
Everything is convoluted. I should feel that i deserve this subtle treatment, or maybe the fact that my mouth often speak of the unspeakable and it's so soft that just the person next to me could hear it, and me, unnoticingly thought they didn't. Silly me, my frailties. How contradicting and overwhelming things have been for me, i have decided to remain patient of how unjustly things have become and i can no longer subdue the social intensity.
I'll mend my own ways with help of my friends, i'll have fun with them that didn't push me aside throughout, that didn't give me those looks, that had similarly gone through what i had, that could be frank with me without being afraid.Everyone has their secrets, and to those that i hold their hearts close to mine, i kept them safely hidden. I kept then safely hidden.
What could make me happy? Feroz or prolly a semi acoustic epiphone. Maybe just the acoustic Dove NA model, or the Hummingbird, but thats way beyond my league, costing over 800 bucks. I'll just be contented even if i get just a semi-acoustic, and earn my way to the Dove. Things have been a little too overwhelming for me. On a lighter note, i sought out my feelings and thought things over, not to jump overboard and assume the unjustly.
My oh my, my alibi, restore my faith in me.
Pristine, please. The sun will always mend our ways, the moon's constant shadow to hide in, the droplets of rain to keep us fairly moisted, and the heat of the sun to keep us warm. This are the tiny things that i overlook. Yes, a sellfish being, thats what i am.
For now, i'll pretend that everything is alright, for actually, something deep is silently stabbing and yes, for sure, i'm sellfish enough to not let you go, but i will, gradually, maybe tomorrow, maybe someday. Reminisince of the days where we stood by each other and laugh with the silly jokes, silly me. Needless to say the most obvious, you've moved on, and that wasn't the worst part.
Why do parents only notice when it's all the wrong things, they never notice about the good things. Why? I used to try my best in school and studies, but somehow, along the way, i've given up because of all the lack of attention. I got such a perfect score for my PSLE. They didnt seem interested even for that, because i didn't remember any celebration or words or anything, i just plainly remembered- 223. That was all. Started slacking, prolly because even my parents were oblivious to my achievements.
Then yesterday happened, and they noticed me for all the bad things. It's too late isn't it, ma?
At least I know i have someone to tell me he loves me. My mum have never said those words to me. Where did all the love go? I love you Feroz, i can say that to him without feeling awkward. I can't even say the word to you ma, without feeling so awkward, it actually means, i have never said it to you, and neither have you. I'm done here.
BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
This is what you get when i'm high and insane. steAMEE!
I'm going to put the password on my blog again soon. It's the same one i had previously. Gahh, i feel superly ticklish over some things that's not supposed to be funny. Ow well, i've decided to stop playing games and start listening to myself and create a better attitude.
I spammed Faa recently. Gahh, oh well, there you go, i was the spammer:
So long the life of daze and folly,
I'll be one to have the ending as jolly,
No more the times of a child,
For that i would not be wild.
I'd take it all back- if i could.
If it's an apology you want, there's the apology you get. Yes i did mean what i say, that was when i was over my head or something. I'd take it all back if i could. let's make it even and critic me in your blog,i wont hold a grudge.
I'm so pathetic. bahhhhhh :B nyeheheheh, yeap i am [:
Saya akan lulus peperiksaan peringkat "o" saya! saya akan cuba sedaya upaya saya untuk mendapat markah yang saya ingini, saya akan menumpuh perhatian di dalam bilik darjah dan saya tidak akan tidur lagi semasa guru sedang mengajar. Bahasa melayu agak sukar untuk saya kerana saya tidak mahir dalam bidang ini. Saya akan mula menulis dalam bahasa melayu mulai hari ini, tetapi jika saya mahu menulis tentang perkara yang pelik pelik seperti "the three piggies" and cendawan, saya akan menulis dalam bahasa inggeris.
Met Nasir and Syu. Syu was a lovely girl, my total opposite, i'm more bashful and she's more outgoing[:
I'm cutting my post short, just feeling lazy for words. Nasir sent Syu home, met Nasir at Kallang. Me and Feroz waited patiently for Nasir, we sat and watched the fireworks that was partially covered by buildings. But it was ok, it was still pretty and lovely. Feroz sent me home, reached home quite late.
I miss cendawan, the piggies, ASL-girl, and more of them(must i mention them all?). It's going to be a tortorous weekend, which i hope not.
♥Harpooned into my heart
Locked by my lips
Carve it on a bark
All is mine for keeps♥
Naja's off in a foreign country, that explains the song in my blog- Souvenirs.
Naja's three little piggy:
Amee, the piggy who loves the music.
Ira, the violent piggy.
I've realised the importance of sun-block lotion. My oh my, my skin went from dark to darker within 20 minutes, had cross country 3 days ago, forced to run under the scorching sun. Just five minutes ago did i realise my skin is tanned. I'm going to start the routine sun-block-lotion-wearing before heading out to school or anywhere else starting from tomorrow, i did that a few months ago when this country was on fire. It rained, now it's back to blazing again. For the record though, it's not that bad, i'll regain my un-tanned skin maybe, within a month.
O's are round the corner, i' started revisions quite late, and i'm still running to catch up. Math is becoming such a fun class to be in, constant exchanges of teasings to the teacher. All i need to do now is stop snoozing off in chemistry, physics and history. I feel like eating a big tub of ice-cream and grow fat out of this misery, if i were to retake my o's, i'd give it my best, but 1 year will be gone down the drain. 73 days to the big day. Humongous sigh for me.
Met Farid and Belle quite recently. Glad to catch up with them after a long, long, very long time. Just so you know, i didn't drink.
Here's my new haircut.