Currently deeply in love with this song, trying to use it as a motivational material.
"Believe in dreams you love so much, let the passion of your heart, make them real"
Yes i do have my dreams, always did, lately didn't believe in my dreams so much, wanted to give up all my hopes and dreams. I just didn't believe in dreams. And for now i'll take things slowly, and go faster as i adapt better.
The first time my ears tuned to this song, i cried. I cried because i know i can do it but i just didn't believe in myself, i looked around, everone seems to be packing up for the last round, and here i was still taking my strolls. Here i am, oblivious to the importance, no i was aware of it and yet i chose ignore. Not anymore, i forgot all about my dreams, and now i remembered them, i should remind myself on my dreams, i shall not forget my dreams, and i shallbelieve in them once again.
"Believe in dreams you love so much, let the passion of your heart, make them real"
Ok, so i'm set out to get the fifty dollars bag i've been wanting. Lately i've been spending on unessecary items, spending dollars and dollars on food that i'll eat only so little of. Imma get it next week. Can't wait.
I wasn't in school today, i wanted to go but i didn't feel quite well that even the alarm clock didn't wake me up. I promise to be in school by monday, i can't afford to miss any more days.
Currently, i'm halfway on my english essay with the title "windows", a made up story. Writing on a past experience, that gave me a scar on my left leg, it was caused by a wild cat that pounced on me from outside the window of my room to assail me. There was a mini world war three in my little bedroom. Yeah so thats how the story goes, which caused me to be afraid of cats and open windows.
I miss Adee and Aki, my wonderful cousins[: i love you guys. Cousins, make yourself free next saturday, alright.
Been constantly ranting on about my sickness. Complaining all day long, just hoping it'll disappear anytime soon. Honestly, i can't help it, like those type that likes to complain when everything isn't going out too well. That's very cliche of me. Clear on the part that ranting on won't have any effect on anything, so i'll try to reduce my mouth functions. Feeling like a sick puppy, eating porridge now, which taste a bit sour, my tastebuds are playing tricks on me, but the porridge's still awesome(i think). I'm not thinkging, i'm just eating. I actually gobbled down a whole packet of chicken rice in the afternoon. My eyes are slightly puffy. heh, now my mouth's not complaining but my fingers are typing it all out. Oh, there's so many means of communication.
Alright, off to continue my dinner, which seems to be alot, but i'll try to finish it off. 9pm, dinner? i'm not sure, think i'll head to bed again after this.
I'm currently grounded, yes, mum barred me from going out this weekend. I'm pissed, because i'm sick and she thinks this is all just another phase of folly. HEY HELLO, i'm sick. S-I-C-K. It's really bugging me because it's not as if i want to be sick, o's are in 10 weeks for god sakes, why the hell would i want to skip school? I can't go to school because i don't feel good, i'm scared that i'll faint on the journey to school or something, and i know i need the rest. I feel terrible just sitting at home because i want to rest but i cant sleep, i didn't even get a shutter yesterday night. I want to study, i have all the time at home but my head hurts even if i read. I would love to do art, but my eyes can't seem to concentrate on the tiny details for observation.
How bad it all is:
-runny nose
-terrible headache
-throat hurts
-tummy ache
-mouth feels dry 24/7
-straining eyes
-strain neck
-the pressure the pressure the pressure
Lovely. I love you sweetheart.
Tomorrow will be endless, i was practically forced to go to the Silat competition. I gave up all my hopes on silat nine months ago, and i'm not even thinking of going back. My martial arts days are over. Well, i have to go, just to support my friends, oh, i don't know what to call them anymore. Haven't been talking to them or contacting them either. I miss them so much, and yet i'm not ready to face them. I miss Feroz, though i met him yesterday, hoping to drag him out of bed and go somewhere, away from silat, during the mid-day, so i could spend some quality time with him. Thinking if i should, because he barely slept a wink last night and had to work the next morning, and got to know he didn't sleep till around 9pm. He's prolly tired and thinking of sleeping the whole day. I feel like being sellfish tomorrow and have him all to myself despite his exhaustion. Oh boy. Alright, i'll just ask him, see if he's willingly to accompany me to somewhere since he's living near to Bedok. I miss his hugs and cuddles. ♥I love you sweetheart. I miss Ira, Naja and Ain, i haven't been seeing ain, or contacting or talking, somehow it doesn't seem weird becuase for a fact, that i just realised, for the past holidays, we sorta don't contact, like we only talk in school. I miss Belle, that sweetheart, hoping to meet up and catch up with lost time. I love you my girlfriends♥
18/06 was memorable i guess, had my hair turned from blonde to a girl with 5 colours in her hair. I had red, pink, blue, purple and brown. haha. Oh well, Dila was sweet, bought for me a meal, thank you Dila. Haha, and that was the day David fell in love with my hair, well not fell in love i guess, but somehow was intrigued by the blonde, which then intrigued him more with the rainbow colour. I think i could've been paddlePop's mascott, you know?
What happened today was went to Toni&Guy at Heeren and got my hair back to black. Oh well i loved the ice cream colour, but school's coming. That was it. Me and naja ate Chippy's after my hair colouring and visited Feroz at Starbucks, wheee, i got 2 hugs from him ^o^ I'm going to gobble him up the next time i see him. Naja was being super funny today, haha, had a hell of a laugh having her as company. Awaiting for confirmation if David's cutting my hair on wednesday. I'd love that. Free haircuts baby.
I was tagged by Syafiqa, since i'm dilly dallying at home, might as well get it done. Here it goes:
(o1) What do you want most now?
- Mum
(o2) Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
- A beach where the stars and moon shines bright
(o3) What's your favourite thing(s) to do?
- Chilling out with friends, Guitar.
(o4) Whats the thing in you that you wanted to change so much?
- Procrastination, that's the worst habit.
(o5) If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
- Be a famous singer in a band like Meg and Dia, or just a solo artist like Theoretical girl.
(o6) Do you believe you can survive without money?
- Right, nobody can.
(o7) (my question) Who's the most important in your life?
- God, Allah.
(o8) What's love?
- LOVE♥
(o9) What do you dream of doing in the future?
- Juggling my hairstyling, photography and music career. haha.(dream on amee)
(1o) List out 3 good points about the person who tagged you.
- She's a sweet little lady(really, very little.ahaa), she's always so friendly and she's the same as everyone else i know(including me), We crap and we lame.
(11) What makes you happy?
- Family, friends, money, music and guitar.
(12) What type of person do you hate the most?
- I stopped hating people.
(13) Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
- Married to a husband with stable job, 4 kids, owns a shop either at arab st or haji lane, smoking sisha or drinking teh tarik.
(14) At what age do you intend to get married?
-24
(15) What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- Everything.
(16) If god were to grant you three wishes, what would it be?
- 1. Purify myself
2. Stop the habits of procrastinating
3. Tell my parents how much i Love and appreciate them.
(17) If you had a chance to change your life, what would you want to change?
- wishing my parents are more open to say the three words i've been yearning to say to them.
(18) The love of your life now?
- FRZ
(19) Are you courageous enough to tell a person that you like him/her?
- I did that once last time, and i find myself childish. Time will tell, you don't need to tell.
(2o) Would you rather follow your heart or mind when deciding for the right one?
- both.
Instruction: Remove 1 question from above & add in your personal question. Make it a total of 2o questions. Then tag 1o people in your list & list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.
(I DONT KNOW WHO TO TAG)
My hair colour is wacky, weird, and freaky. Its strawberry blonde, mind you. Haha, i look like a midnight ghost, for awhile there, i looked like model, but once i stepped out of Toni&Guy's premises, i felt like an alien, practically. Everyone was staring at me, i suppose, or maybe i was just paranoid. I don't mind, it's surely going to be gone by thursday, back to black[:
I'm freakishly excitde for 18 June to come, Toni&Guy here i come.
It spurs my mind how unrefined we all turned out. How minor details is the one that labels us all throughout. We change but the mindset still remains. Exhaling a super shout, scream it off. That's what i feel like doing, relieving the insanes. Indecisive we all are, sometimes fickle about the things we do, "should I? or should I not?". So unsure, but still sticking to the plan. How fetid life can be, so pristine one day and the next, the black land. God knows why I have the sudden urge to blabber all this abouts. Remembering those days, where girls rule and boys drool. Those past post, memoirs.
When loving guys was such a ghost, when lies were a hush hush thing, when my words were so pure, when God was the name i sing, when my heart was so demure.
Today was exceptionally great. Before meeting Belle,I was with a friend, well in fact, with my Boss because today i was her Personal Assistant(PA), she took advantage of me because i brought along bag-_- Furthermore, I purchased this skirt that Belle claimed that Zizie bought it, so Belle and I got the skirt, a cheap deal. Oh well. Belle was my make up artist today, she drew the eyeliner on my eyes, wore for me mascara and lipgloss[:
I've been neglecting my blog for a few days. So much has happened, i guess. Oh well, so here it goes.
I went out today, spent some quality time with a special friend. It was, well- fun. I don't exactly know how to go into details, but today was superb.
Had my hair fall over
The curse was gone
I prayed and i hoped
It went away, the sense of forlorn
I dreamed again
It wasn't a dream
The beat, it was faint.
For what it's worth, i'll give you my all
Ok i forgot to mention the design on the top left hand corner, was done by me, i used my cousin's tablet PC, it was awesome. I wish i had one, really. I did another design for my cousin, it's almost similar to mine except for the colour part. Her design was red black white and grey. I love tablet PC and adobe Photoshop CS3.
Had a pleasant day with my dear Peanut. Sudden reoccurance in my head, at Mosi cafe, where the manager took our picture, it tickles me. Well, i'm really happy to be with you. I love you Peanut, I really do
♥I wish there were lots of stars in the sky, where we were
Anyway, i was asleep when i recieved a text from Tony and Guy, telling me to call them. I got too excited, i didn't wait for my shower, i brushed my teeth and immediately called them back. How excited i was when they said to come down today at 6pm. The problem is, my special friend's cutting her's tommorow, and mine's today. I'll try and call back to get my haircut tommorow around 2pm with her^o^
Yesterday's photo:
Amee, Belle, Ira, Mira(mirror)
Amee feat. Mr Polaroid and The Beatles
Belle, Amee(bulldozer/Dragon!- haha)
Ira
I am really ashamed of myself.
Ira, i'm really sorry for disappointing you, i really don't know what to say now. Because i'm just so ashamed of myself, i couldn't even go home with you. I just, i don't know. I was so greedy and sellfish just now, greedy especially. It was fun while it lasted but then i started to feel bad, because i know you were disappointed. I know it's a sin. I know, I was wild for a second there, even lied to my parents. I don't know what i was thinking. The satans whispered in my ear and i willingly allowed them to take over my brain. I just don't know what to say anymore.
I'm growing into a chubb.
I'm the yellow-skinned girl.
Can't stop myself but to notice the tiny details.
Today was fabulous, i went school to trace out my drawing unto the wood. All thats left for me to do is start painting tommorow. Didn't waste my time in school today. Reached home, changed out of the school's uniform, turn on the music, and worked out. YEAH, work out. Managed a pathetic twenty men's push-ups and twenty women's push-ups, couldn't afford to do more, and was killing myself by forcufully doing more that a hundred sit-ups. Exhausted by the energy, too lazy to hit the showers first, and since the guitar was two seconds away, spent an hour strumming and singing. Just came out of the showers and my tummy's churning and growling, i think there's a beast in there. I'm off for some dinner number one, then study and then to dinner number two ^o^
Just decided to change my blogskin.
Went to school today. School was such a bore, thought it was a waste of time but least was that i got to learn chemistry. This is random but, I'm hungry, a clear sign that my menses are coming- never ending pangs of hunger, constantly thinking of what to eat, but my butt remains at a position of sitting down. Brain sending messages to the body that eating is tedious, but my tummy's fighing back. World War 3 :o
Wasted half the day on my blogskin, i shall start on my studies now. Wait, i shall eat first, followed by intensive study, alright.
♥Here i go.