busy keeping up with the fast-paced yesterday, today and tomorrow. inactive online because of the other wonders of internet prone to sickness, physically, mentally and virtually.
my heart in a state of sheer halycon, i further mulled over Ira's words in her blog. How long have i been living in the world constantly intoxicated by miasma's? the winsome feeling is a portent of the salubrious atmosphere i've longed for, and so i've stepped into that world, finally. for once, i am nascent, giving me the possesion of divine afflatus, i have learnt to assuage myself. I threw away all my misgivings towards anything, along with some of my illiterate manners. I have my trust and faith in God, he gives me all, both good and bad, for reasons i will one day understand. My heart is no longer in vulnerability, i will stand forth and won't take back my emotions, i won't pretend to be anymore. I will be when i want to, at home, in school, and anywhere else, my face will tell my affectivity. everythings moving so gracefully now, ever better than before.
today was splendid, i was out to heart thumping excercise. I was set, off venturing to a skatepark i've never been, asked along by Anis, a girl i've never met. the afternoon was a turn off, i didn't set my foot on the park due to the humidity. I started off sometime during the evening, when the cool atmosphere setted in- surrounded by sweaty boys and some half-naked. Only a pathetic number of two girls active in the park, the only girls there. I was bashful at first but realizing that it was not much of an issue, i started off real slow, but ended off real well.
I skated for awhile. It was invigorating, reminiscent of the past days where Elly and Ana was my weekly skate buddies, but due to the hectic programmes for Olevels they packed themselves in, they are not as free as me, living everyday with daily nothingness to get rushed into, shifting my importance to something not-so important. nonetheless, i still know that i have my endless endeavors left untried. i shall once again be part of the studious geeks, in my another attempt to walk in the right direction.
Silly Billy peanut is sick, hope you're doing well. Have been away from Ira, for a whole day, how much i miss her, and also Tedd and Peanut.
Don't make a raucus people, Peanut is just my best friend[:
busy keeping up with the fast-paced yesterday, today and tomorrow.
