busy keeping up with the fast-paced yesterday, today and tomorrow. inactive online because of the other wonders of internet prone to sickness, physically, mentally and virtually.
Yes it has been a painfully long time since I last blogged. Currently my mind has been in a state of utter turmoil, my heart refuses to rest and it gets into what you call paranoia. Trying to occupy myself by getting myself busy with the devil, it's called the television. I have been catching up with TV sitcoms with the plain reason that i can't cope with the pressure. That sounded self-centered. Seemingly to be upset over the slightest things, and regaining my chirpy mood a minute later. I'm having ugly mood swings, and no, its not due to menses. I'm becoming eccentric i guess, a crazy fella. I'm becoming a muddlehead, i can't quite recall much anymore, i forget all the important things all at the wrong times. Just wish someday, people would just leave me alone and let me rest, an overnight spent with the stars or something.
♥There were sometimes, where i'd wish my younger brother was never born at all, there were sometimes that i cursed him to be dead. There were sometimes that i misunderstood my friends, there were sometimes that i felt ignored. There were sometimes that i felt my mum didn't love me, there were sometimes that i thought i didn't love her. There were sometimes that i doubt life itself, there were sometimes that i thought things were going to be alright. There were sometimes that i wish that i'd just knock my head and wake up forgetting anything and everything, there were sometimes that i hoped i'd faint in school just so my memories could be erased.
♥The clouds are all that is keeping me at bay. I yearn for the sparkling stars, the moon that shines, the appaling sight of the coast and the breeze that compliments the ambiance.♥
busy keeping up with the fast-paced yesterday, today and tomorrow.
