The dust crowd

Apr 28, 2009 ♥10:31 PM

"Sometimes i wish i was like mariella, she got some print stick and she glued her lips together, so she never had to speak, never had to speak, never had to speak"
Mariella, Kate Nash.

Yes, sometimes i do wish that i never had to speak, because i can't seem to confront my own feelings, knowing how to talk makes it so hard to tell. Knowing how to speak makes it so much more hurting, because you can't seem to put your assorted feelings into words, you can't seem to sum up your guts and to just say it out loud. It really is so easy to keep mum about it, but not so easy to hide it. Am i suppose to resume back to what I've thrown away, to what i hated so much and to what i discriminated? Yes i do, but i don't want to, but why not? I don't know, even in typing, it all seems surreal, everything, i wish it really was. Is it only part of my delusions or are things really the way they are, am i just being too delicate? Speak to me, and please speak clearly. Please do, because i need to.
Another night with another concept of rain to stop.

I love you.

Apr 27, 2009 ♥9:48 PM

Mental breakdowns are possibly the time where you get tired all the time, feeling sad, just feeling that anything and everything is against you. You feel like you just want to call the quits. Stop everything for a while and just be on your own, just want everything to go your way and yours alone. Getting emotional over the slightest things and getting your eyes puffed at the end of the day. Not knowing whats wrong with you and proceed with ponderng on the matter, you know you're having a breakdown, but why? Is it because you're a fucktard or are you just emotionally tired. Are you dumb, insensitive and sellfish? When you just feel like jumping to a new environment but scared to lose the ones you love. Do they understand you anymore or are you just being confusing to them?

"i wish that you knew when i said two sugars actually i meant three"
Nicest Thing by Kate nash

I just find this text from the lyrics very relevant and quite sad, because sadly, sometimes you tend to think like that, not reffering to the whole song, but just the chosen text above.

"I hate myself today, i don't know whats happening to me. I hate my face today, i think i look so shitty today. I have some spot everywhere and i'm not even shaved, my hair are greasy, i look disgusting today. My eyes are glued, my lips are chapped, my legs are prickling and plus, i'm stinky today."
Shitty Day by Soko

Apr 25, 2009 ♥1:49 AM

I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being heartless.

Birds can fly so high and they can shit on your head yeah they can almost fly into your eyes and make you feel so scared but when you look at them, you see that they're beautiful, that's how i feel about you.

Apr 15, 2009 ♥12:15 AM

OK, me, lolu and Fya found a new hobby. It's something like a blog but much more primitive[:

Ok, the update on April 13th wasn't specific enough. The Coffee Club Hardi's angels, Lolu, Fya and I went to Starbucks Store Barbecue Outing at East Coast Park. Well, it wasn't actually Starbucks outing, the foundation was Starbucks but all of the starbucks crew didn't overnight, so at last, only Feroz and Sam was the only starbucks there. Plus, there were more Coffee Club people there, we won by 1 person. Back to the story, when Lolu, Fya and I reached there, there were some Starbucks crew gambling, they went home soon after, anyways, when we reached there, Feroz pointed to patch of grass, saying that there's a couple making love, and we were thinking like "WTH?". I mean, i thought he was joking, but some of his friends made so much fuss about it. Then it was time, the action baby, from their sillhouette, we saw the whole action going on, it wasn't so clear but it was obvious. Of course, our eyes was glued, but i decided not to be like the perverted boys and girls there and broke my gaze away.
Around 1am, the only ones left were, Feroz, Sam, Qhaizul, Martin, Lolu, Fya and Me. Sam was sleeping, He's the one in the garbage bag in the photo posted on 13thApril. Haha. Our core entertainment was actually Sam, the guys kept disturbing him, and putting things in his mouth while the girls just snapped and snapped more photos of the 7th wonders of the world(Sam). When he was in the trashbag, he looked like some victim from CSI, it was hilarious.
We were up till dawn and that's about it. It was so much more fun than what i wrote.

Apr 13, 2009 ♥2:08 AM

Apr 5, 2009 ♥4:51 PM

AMEE'S A BITCH!

Apr 1, 2009 ♥9:51 PM

Good evening, welcome to xxxx, table for?
Here you go ma'am/sir, just for your information the soup of the day is xxxx soup.
And if you spend above $30 with Visa, you could get a complimentary cake of the day which is xxxx.

1.)Also, if you order 2 sets of main course or pastas, the higher priced will be charged, so as to say, you get one complimentary.
OR?
2.)Also, if you get a main course or pasta, you could get another same priced meal or cheaper one, complimentary.

Here, Here and Here.

It was like Yesterday, Feroz and i didn't know where to go so ended up at City Hall. I recalled a HMV at Citylink, so i tugged Feroz and half run to HMV. I was like "Here, Here and Here" and he was like "?", i raised up my hand and said "Here, Here and Here" countless of times. that was all. ok, splitting headache from too much espresso yesterday and too much sleep today. ciao.